It's been a while... part 3

It has not been as long as it was from the last update, but not much has changed. Still unemployed and what not. August 31st, my Nana passed away; although I'm sad, I find this experience not quite as painful or jarring as when David passed away. With the anniversary of his passing coming soon, I don't know how Mom or I will feel in the times to come.

I find myself feeling just as hollow and as lost as I did the previous year. A feeling of standing and knowing the rug is about to be pulled from under me, but still unprepared. I'm very confused.

... Even with time things haven't changed much, the anniversary of David's passing has come and gone and with that time a different heartache has come. November 20th my Grandma passed away ending her long battle with cancer, so I lost both my grandmother's in the same year. Even though these passings weren't as shocking as David's it was still very jarring.

I'm kind of feeling hollow that the only things I have to write about are the deaths of my family members...

It's been a while... part 2

I've got to get better at these updates. I guess the reason it takes so long is that things don't usually change that much between post. I'm still unemployed and looking for work (although I might have an opportunity if I can get comfortable with the idea and the skills). Financial issues are still looming over our heads and the anniversary of David's passing is coming up. I think the only thing that changed in between all that was the passing of my great Aunt Emma (who I miss very much), she passed a few weeks after her 100th birthday. I really dislike how all my main updates are pretty much downers, but it is what it is. Hopefully something really good will come our way. Maybe something good will come every one's way :-).

It's been a while...

A bit of time has passed since my last update. The shock of David's death still hasn't passed and I know it's suppose to get better with time, but right now I just feel numb. Some times I will laughing and joking and the next moment I feel like I want to scream and cry. I can only let time go by.

He's gone...

My brother, David, passed today. He was pronounced brain dead last week, but today his body finally left us as well...

And more time passess...

Another gap in time. This year feels like it's been the longest yet. So much has happened, with my Nana, and now my brother is in the hospital. My mother went to go stay with him until he wakes up, so I'm here with Nana. Though it hasn't been that bad, our friends and family are such wonderful people and have been great help and comfort while all this is happening. I'm just hoping and praying that David is OK, and that he wakes up soon and problem free.

Been so long...

Nothing much has changed on the job front, but a lot has happened with my family. I'm feeling more than a little emotionally drained and I know my family is. I just hope that things get better soon.

Brand New Year

Some time has passed since I've updated and I felt the need to, though there hasn't been much change. I'm still looking for work and some kind of health care with my heart issue (among other problems). I'm hoping this year will be better though. Since the start of the writing group I have been writing a bit more, but my mind keeps going places in the story I don't want it to. Oh well, I know at least the fact that I'm writing more and I have people to read it and stuff is a good thing. Maybe I can finally get a story out there in the world and feel accomplished, something I've wanted to feel for a while now.