It's been a while... part 3

It has not been as long as it was from the last update, but not much has changed. Still unemployed and what not. August 31st, my Nana passed away; although I'm sad, I find this experience not quite as painful or jarring as when David passed away. With the anniversary of his passing coming soon, I don't know how Mom or I will feel in the times to come.

I find myself feeling just as hollow and as lost as I did the previous year. A feeling of standing and knowing the rug is about to be pulled from under me, but still unprepared. I'm very confused.

... Even with time things haven't changed much, the anniversary of David's passing has come and gone and with that time a different heartache has come. November 20th my Grandma passed away ending her long battle with cancer, so I lost both my grandmother's in the same year. Even though these passings weren't as shocking as David's it was still very jarring.

I'm kind of feeling hollow that the only things I have to write about are the deaths of my family members...

It's been a while... part 2

I've got to get better at these updates. I guess the reason it takes so long is that things don't usually change that much between post. I'm still unemployed and looking for work (although I might have an opportunity if I can get comfortable with the idea and the skills). Financial issues are still looming over our heads and the anniversary of David's passing is coming up. I think the only thing that changed in between all that was the passing of my great Aunt Emma (who I miss very much), she passed a few weeks after her 100th birthday. I really dislike how all my main updates are pretty much downers, but it is what it is. Hopefully something really good will come our way. Maybe something good will come every one's way :-).

It's been a while...

A bit of time has passed since my last update. The shock of David's death still hasn't passed and I know it's suppose to get better with time, but right now I just feel numb. Some times I will laughing and joking and the next moment I feel like I want to scream and cry. I can only let time go by.